The past couple of weeks have dished out some sudden changes in my life. It began with the demise of my computer. Oh was this stressful! I was not able to participate in Skype meetings or prepare lesson plans for Haitian teachers as I had been doing. I no longer could check in on my friends and forums, quickly check on how many Book Club friends would be arriving for dinner, if my friends Sandra and Monika would be arriving to help me with garden tasks. No pictures of my grandchildren. No contact with family or friends from abroad. And more annoyances as well! I was truly vexed.
No grandchildren on the swing…
After several days of this, with no computer replacement or repairs in sight, I began to acquire some feelings of acceptance. Slowly, I realized that in fact the telephone still exists! (Thanks Monika!) There was a long period of fine weather and I could take advantage of it to accomplish lots of work outdoors.
Then it rained for 5 days in a row. Withdrawal once more…. No gardening possible.
I was able to read several books (and children’s books too!) without distraction. We got to visit friends, eat out, run errands and even do a bit of Christmas shopping!
I also had moments to worry about a sick friend, go to a doctor’s appointment with my husband, and other normal but less wonderful parts of life.
Then suddenly, my Phoebe became very ill. From our sweet rascally 5 year old, she rapidly turned into a lethargic dog who would not eat, whose breathing was laboured, who began panting. Friday was a most difficult day, filled with alarm, worries and fear! Would her temperature ever stop climbing? It did eventually. We may never know the cause of her illness, but we have it under control it seems. I am thankful that I was home, attentive to her that morning, and not upstairs – a slave to the computer! My favorite vet was on duty to care for her and we keep in touch. Yesterday Phoebe raced about with us after her walk, truly her mischievous self! Today is her last day on antibiotics, so we will be keeping a very close watch.
And so last night my husband returned with a used computer for me. Frankly, by now, I am not as enthusiastic about it re-entering my life as you might expect. I hope my addiction will be under control. They say that children under the age of two should have ZERO screen time. I believe that! But I also believe that I should have controls not far from that! I love the access to information from Wikipedia, Google and such on-line places. I love being connected to far away family and having a place to share our photos. But at the moment, I do not have Skype. I cannot use our printer yet. There are some glitches still to be ironed out. I can wait!
I like to think that I am in charge now, in charge of how much of my life I choose to give over to my machine. Fortunately the sudden changes in my life were not huge life-altering ones. My new outlook is a fine thing! I think there is a place for a computer in my life, but in much smaller doses. I don’t think I’ll ever like sudden changes though.